This is probably the hardest thing I ever had to write, just because it is so personal, moves and twists the knife inside old wounds so much, and because this is something I’ve been needing to do for years and years, but fear of reprisal paralyzed me… but now I feel like I’ve reached my limit. It’s been too long and I must break the silence.
To anyone who isn’t involved, I’m sorry I’ve had to post this publicly, just move on and don’t mind me, please. Others, well. Do whatever you want with this. I’m just trying to take the trash out and make a move to end issues and drama that has been going on for almost 10 years in some cases.
I truly, honestly, only want peace. That’s all. I’m not gonna give names, I’m not looking for more drama, issues, or open war. All I want is closure. Whether you believe me or not is up to you, but I need to do this for my peace of mind and sanity. Because yes, this has gotten serious to the point I think my sanity is at stake, and maybe even my life given how dark my thoughts can get at times.
Sorry this sounds melodramatic, but I’m trying to survive my darkest, most desperate urges. And this is how I’ve chosen to deal with it. I didn’t want to make a fuss, but I feel like I’m running out of options. My deepest apologies to anyone this is going to disturb.